Chocolate Mousse

Sugar Free, THM-S, LCHF

For 4 people

Right. The pictures I posted on facebook of this deliciousness in a bowl got such an overwhelming response and beggings for the recipe that I thought I would share it far and wide :-).

This dessert was famous in La Neuveville, my home town in Switzerland, and was often requested. For some unknown reason I stopped making it for several years, but there you go, I made it again on Saturday for movie night at a friend's and fell in love with it all over again.

It comes from the book ("Croqu' Menus") I got for my home education class in Year 7, class otherwise known at the time as "la popotte".

Enjoy, and do try not to dribble or fall off your chair when you eat it!

Also, DO lick the bowl!

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Ingredients:

2 egg yolks

2 tbsp erythritol/xylitol/Natvia - or sugar if you must

100g dark chocolate (I use 85%)

1 tbsp strong coffee (or to taste)

2 egg whites

2 dl cream

Method:

Beat the egg yolks and sweetener of choice until light and frothy. 

Melt the chocolate in a bain-marie.

Add melted chocolate to egg yolk mixture and stir in.

Add coffee and stir in.

Beat egg whites until firm peaks form, and whip cream.

Add egg whites and cream, alternatively and DELICATELY.

Gently pour into a bowl or individual dishes.

Lick the bowl.

Regrigerate for 2 hours.

Decorate with chocolate shavings and/or strawberries and/or extra whipped cream.

Eat and taste a slice of heaven.

I was struck by lightning

Howahhh. What? 

Yeah, I was struck... by the Lightning Process...

And I can't keep quiet about it a minute longer. Every single day I read posts on Facebook about people suffering from chronic illnesses or conditions (like ME, chronic fatigue, migraines, depression, anxiety, food allergies, other allergies etc.), and I know of something that can help them. It would just be incredibly selfish of me not to share my amazing journey.

But first, what in the world is the Lightning Process? It's an amazing training programme whereby you learn how to rewire your brain and to train your brain to tell your body what to do so that you can get better when you are stuck in your life, or stuck in your health.

For those of you know me or who have been following me for a while, you will know that I suffered from post natal depression after the birth of both my children, that anxiety was a big issue, and that my self esteem and body image had never been amazing. 

When my second child was a few months old, I bumped into Sarah. I hadn't seen her in quite awhile and the last time I had seen her, she was suffering from chronic fatigue and multiple food intolerances. That day, she was full of energy and eating the same as me. So I asked her what had happened, and she just answered, "I did the Lightning Process and now I'm fine and I can eat whatever I want". Well, I wanted to know her secret and I wanted to do the same thing. 

At the time, it turned out the only Lightning Process trainer was in Auckland, and the training programme was over $1,000 (it still is by the way). I felt really deflated, but Sarah told me that she was training to become a recognised trainer and that she would be in touch when she was fully qualified. She did! But I couldn't afford it, or maybe I wasn't desperate enough.

You know, 

Sound familiar?

Earlier this year however, I had had ENOUGH. I was on anti-depressants every other day but I was tense, pretty anxious, highly strung, without a sense of humour, and generally tired of faking it. I was angry and disappointed with myself for not enjoying motherhood. I was also very, very tired of sneezing all day every day and reacting to every little pollen and allergen in the air. I wanted to be able to visit friends with cats if I so wished. I wanted to look in the mirror and see a beautiful woman. And I wanted to know what to do with my life.

I was driving one day and I thought, 

Ann, you're just existing. You are waiting for each day to pass so you can get to the next one, and then the next one, until the day you die.

That day was my turning point.

I emailed Sarah Field who is the Lightning Process trainer at Monarch Life, ordered Phil Parker's Introduction to the Lightning Process, and signed up after I'd read it and had a chat with Sarah. On the 1st of August, I was sitting in her training room with 6 other desperate people, and for 3 days I drank in every word and learned how to train my brain to tell my body what to do.

After day 1, I experienced BUBBLES OF JOY! (I hadn't experienced that in over 7 years)

After day 2, I went clothes shopping and didn't have one single negative thought about myself. (I had never experienced that)

After day 3, I was actually looking forward and excited at the prospect of going on holiday to Fiji with my family. (I had never looked forward to spending several days in a row with my kids with no respite. To that day I was dreading that holiday and was wondering how I would get through it)

Today, almost 2 months later, I cannot tell you the number of times my husband has just stared at me unbelieving. I have blown him away. We had an amazing holiday in Fiji. I am not stressed about these school holidays and I haven't planned every minute in advance. I use my calm voice so much more than before. I enjoy being with my kids a lot of the time. My allergies have all but disappeared, and on the rare occasions when I do have symptoms, I do the Lightning Process steps, and they go away. My self confidence has grown in leaps and bounds. I am not afraid of the future and have confidence in my abilities. I experience joy and happiness. And my daughter gave me 2 amazing gifts. She said to me one day shortly after I did the training: "Mum, you actually laughed today!". And on another occasion she said: "Mum, you don't get angry anymore" (I do get angry, but I am able to control it now). I do now burst out laughing. I do giggle. 

There is so much more I could say, but what I really wanted to do today was share how the Lightning Process training course has changed my life for the better. I am off anti depressants (and so much better than when I was on them). I am mostly off asthma and allergy medication. But most importantly,

If you find that

- you've lost your sense of humour, or

- you're not living a life you love,

then the Lightning Process training can change your life too. Please get in touch with me if you would like to know more or if you have any questions.

You can find testimonies on how the Lightning Process has changed lives here.

Kia Kaha dear readers. Be Strong! 

And do leave me a comment. I love to hear from you.

Caution Note: do not stop medication without talking to your GP as well as your Lightning Process trainer.

For those who may be wondering: the Lightning Process did not and does not clash with my Christian beliefs. If anything, my faith is even stronger than it was.

A Holiday Bunting in 8 Easy Steps!

I've had this idea in my head for a while now but have never actually sat down and done it this way before. 

I started planning school holidays more effectively last year (I still don't understand parents who love school holidays by the way). But the kids weren't very involved. Everything was in my calendar and I shared the plans with them little by little, but they had no sense of ownership. 

So, if you like to plan ahead, and also be a little creative and not spend a lot of money, this idea is for you: a

Here are the steps to follow:

1. On a piece of paper or the computer, create a list of ideas of things you would enjoy doing with your kids over the holidays. Include outdoor and indoor, free and not free. Also include people you would enjoy having a play date with. Write everything that goes through your head. For ideas, please scroll down to the bottom of this post or check this out.

I love brainstorming in cafes.

2. On another piece of paper or other Word document, make two columns - one for each week. Add 5 lines for each week, 1 line per working day (add weekends if your partner will be away or working on those days as well). I also separated each line into morning and afternoon. Start filling in the blanks with your ideas from your brainstorm list. Send messages to those you'd like to meet up with and add them to your table once they are confirmed.

3. Get excited about your plans and about how your kids are going to enjoy their holidays!

4. Get your bunting necessities together:

• scissors
• pen
• black permanent marker
• 1 piece of paper per day to fill up (10 in my case)
• 1 little cello or zip lock bag per day (10 in my case)
• your plan for the two weeks
• a piece of string or ribbon (whatever you have on hand)
• a pack of mini pegs (2 dollar shop)
• a pack of felt stars or star stickers (2 dollar shop)
• cello tape

5. On each piece of paper, write the plan for the morning, and for the afternoon.

6. Then fold the paper in two (so that the contents stay secret), and write the date on the front.

7. Insert the folded paper, with an initialled star (this is to determine who will be the star of the day that day) into the little bag, close and set aside. Repeat for each day of the holidays you planned.

8. Secure your ribbon or string somewhere (fridge, wall, etc), and attach the little bags to it, in order or not if your kids are older, with the mini pegs. 

You're done!

Doesn't it look super cute? My kids are so excited each morning to discover what we'll be doing for that day. And of course, I stay as flexible as possible and adapt where necessary. There are not many squabbles about who goes first etc. because the Star of the Day is pre-decided.

And for the first time EVER, I'm enjoying the school holidays! I NEVER thought I'd say that. I don't love the holidays. And I do prefer Term time, but I'm not waking each morning with a sense of panic.

I have a plan. I feel empowered! If you want a look at what we're up to, scroll down to the bottom of this post.

Happy holidays Mums and Dads! Let's try and have some fun.

Kia Kaha! Be Strong!

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Activity ideas I had this time:

• playdates (include names)
• chipmunks/junglerama/laughalots or other similar indoor playground
• zoo trip
• build lego
• treasure hunt
• water balloons
• build a fort
• visit a favourite cafe
• movies
• visit a pet shop
• baking
• make pancakes
• swimming pool
• discover a new playground
• ice cream outing
• library visit

What we are actually doing:

• Monday 18th: visit a favourite cafe and a pet shop; babysitting swap, reading/spelling
• Tuesday 19th: swimming pool playdate; quiet at home (incl. reading/spelling)
• Wednesday 20th: son in care, Mummy-daughter time; babysitting swap, reading/spelling
• Thursday 21st: kids in care while I work; playdate
• Friday 22nd: kids in care while I work
• Monday 25th: Junglerama playdate; quiet at home (make pancakes?)
• Tuesday 26th: playdate; quiet at home (incl. reading/spelling)
• Wednesday 27th: son in care, Mummy-daughter time; bake together, reading/spelling
• Thursday 28th: kids in care while I work; ice cream outing
• Friday 29th: kids in care while I work

Clamp my tubes please! Or why I got sterilized.

My daughter is about to turn 7. My son is 3.5. I love them.

Two weeks ago, I got sterilized. Tubes clamped. No more babies please! Or maybe I should say, No more flippin' babies, please. You get the idea. I wanted something definite. 

For E.V.E.R.

No more babies!

I was as sure as I'll ever be and had been since the moment my second child was born. A few months after his birth, as I was still convinced of this and terrorised of having sex (not great for the relationship with my husband), I visited the doctor at my local Family Planning Clinic and asked to be referred for sterilization. I ticked all the boxes and my referral was accepted. 

Now this bit is kind of hazy to me. Remember, I was in the depth of Post Natal Depression and my brain was more than foggy. I saw the gynaecologist, who somehow talked me out of it and I walked out my appointment with a Mirena IUD. I was in shock and I wasn't sure what had happened.

Time passed, and I was still scared (read terrified) of having sex. I just couldn't stop myself from worrying that maybe the IUD had moved, or come out without me knowing. All very irrational, I know. Moreover, I am convinced that what hormones are contained in the Mirena IUD were not helping me get rid of this bloody depression.

So when my son turned 3, I went back to see the doctor, ended up in a mess of tears and hysterics, begged for another referral, which was miraculously accepted.

I went to the appointment with the specialist like a warrior ready to do battle. I was pumped and fuming. I went in, told them in no uncertain terms why I was there, and was told rather nicely that they would grant my wish and sterilize me this time.

This time?, I asked. Apparently, the specialist I saw the first time had taken it upon himself to decide for me and had thought that I might change my mind and want another child later on. I could have got angry. I didn't. I just thought:

Yes! No more babies! Sex with no fear of getting pregnant!

30 minutes before the operation.
Relaxed and at peace.

Two weeks later I was lying on the operation table, then on my way home, drugged up and very sore from the keyhole surgery. Good thing I didn't know before hand how painful the recovery would be, or how slow (don't let any surgeons tell you that keyhole surgery is nothing. It IS something).

Lying in bed over the next few days, I had a lot of time to think. A lot of friends told me how brave I had been. How strong. I wasn't sure I understood why. Deciding to get sterilized was one of the easiest decisions of my life. I never, and I mean NEVER, want to put myself, my husband or my kids through the effects of Post Natal Depression and Anxiety again.

I am completely at peace about my decision. Entirely confident about what I've done. I'm so looking forward to having sex and feeling free to enjoy it fully. But I'm also sad because I have to...

... accept that child bearing is not good for me. And having two beautiful children already, I shall make sure I never bear a child again. For me, the strength does not lie in the decision to get sterilised but in the acceptance of my limitations and the discrepancy between my young woman dreams and my realities of motherhood.

I love this sculpture.
The mother looks totally at peace with her two children.

So why didn't my husband just get the snip, you might wonder. Well, I wondered too. For a while. But then we decided, together, that since I could get funding for my operation, we might as well save the snip money for a holiday or something nice. I don't really care who is sterilized, as long as one of us is.

This is my story, my perceptions, my decision. In no way do I want to influence, judge or criticize anyone else's journey. I just love to share with you and I hope that I can encourage you in one way or another.

Kia Kaha! Be Strong!

Please leave me a comment. I love to hear from you :-).

Bestest Chocolate and Banana Cake - Processed Sugar Free!

So who wants a moist, decadent, delicious chocolate cake? And, it's processed sugar free!

A few months ago, my sister sent me a recipe saying, "just leave out the sugar, it'll be fine without". I was intrigued as it used fresh bananas and apple sauce. I gave it a go and tweaked it a little and my non-chocolate-cake-eater-of-a-son devoured a piece, then another, and then I had to stop him. My daughter and husband loved it too, and it's been easy to make it THM (Trim Healthy Mama) friendly as well, which is a bonus.

I'm also going to share my scrumptious fructose free chocolate icing with you. I use Organic Brown Rice Syrup (this is made from fermented cooked rice and is a blend of complex carbohydrates, maltose and glucose. It's 100% fructose free) instead of icing sugar. This was inspired by the lovely Angela from The Sugar Trade during one of her workshops.

So here goes and let me warn you - this cake is good! You can also make muffins or mini muffins with this mix.

For my fellow Trim Healthy Mamas or Men, this would be a Crossover.

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Ingredients

3 ripe bananas, mashed

1/2 cup apple sauce (no added sugar)

1 tsp vanilla extract

1 egg

1 cup flour (or ground almonds for LCHF or THM)

1/2 cup cocoa

1 tsp baking soda

1/4 tsp salt

1 cup very dark chocolate chips (I chop 85% chocolate into little pieces)

Method

Preheat oven to 180 degrees Celsius.

Combine the bananas, apple sauce, vanilla extract and egg. 

Add the flour, cocoa, baking soda and salt. Mix well. 

Stir in the chocolate chips.

Bake for 20 to 25 minutes if making a cake, and for 15 minutes if making muffins.

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For the icing:

Ingredients

150g softened butter

3 tbsp organic brown rice syrup

2 tbsp cocoa

Method

Beat all three ingredients together until well combined. Spread over cake or muffins.

Enjoy! And let me know what you think of it.

Kia Kaha! Be Strong! (and don't eat the whole cake in one sitting!)